...and off the Chantix.

I actually stopped taking it about a week ago.  I didn't like the effects and I felt like it had already helped me get over the hump.  Now, I barely even think about smoking.  I even go outside and hang out with the smokers with no urge to partake.  I got wasted this weekend...still no smoking.  It's like I was never a smoker at all.  I personally think that the recommended 3 months on Chantix is overkill, considering I didn't even use up 2 weeks of my 1 month supply.  My girlfriend has quit now too .  She's gonna cold turkey it though since she was only doing 4 or 5 cigs a day.

So would I recommend Chantix? Yes I would.  But I'd be careful to listen to my body.  If the effects are negative, and you don't feel like you need to take it, then stop taking it.

This is a stock photo, but it looks just like her

I think I'm gonna make a push to 500 stars for the next couple of weeks.  It's hard with work and all but I got this far, I think I've just been lazy.  I have that mentality that everything out there has been sifted.  I don't know why I haven't had the urge to make that level...maybe it's because there's no real benefits of being a silver diamond and I have always been driven by shiny new privileges.  Oh well it's about time.  Wish me lucks...

I went to the pharmacy today to pick up my perscription of anti-smoking superstar, Chantix.  It was a whopping $133 which my insurance decided they wouldn't pay.  It's ok though because I used my flex spending account to pay for it instead.  I was actually doing ok quitting on my own but it was really difficult at work.  I sit by the door everybody goes out of to smoke and am constantly asked if I want to smoke.  At home, however, I really don't have much of an urge and it's not like the urge will keep distracting me from something important.

So anyway I went to pick it up at the pharmacy and I got to talk to the pharmacist so that he may explain how to take it.  I get these 4 boxes, 3 of them blue, 1 of them green.  I start with the green one and take 1 a day for 3 days then 2 a day for the rest of the week.  He actually told me to smoke during this time.  A doctor in the medical field, told me to smoke. Ha!  Of course, not wanting to go against the pharmacist's orders I immediately bought a pack of cigarettes at the nearest gas station (I shoulda used my flex spending account for that since he told me to smoke).  I had 2 throughout the rest of the day and not 1 since.  I have already taken 1 of the pills so I don't know if I just don't desire a cig or if it's the drug already working.

Another thing the pharmacist told me is that the side effect of this drug is that it'll give me vivid dreams.  That could be good, since I rarely remember any of my dreams anyway...maybe I'll become more spiritual if I can remember my dreams...HAHAHAHAHA! right...

 

[edit] Last night I had a very vivid dream.  It was almost lucid in that I knew I was dreaming and I could control some of the things in it.  Anyway, in my dream, Lucky banned me so I went to the videosift headquarters (which by the way is in a huge skyscraper office building).  Lucky tried to convince me that I was writing shitty comments and emails to people and yadda yadda yadda.  He had evidence in my dream, I just don't remember if it was really things I've typed.  Him and Dag were very very mean to me...and I don't remember if they had faces.

No I didn't see "the Hangover" this weekend (although I can't wait to see it). It's about 10:40 now and I'm starting to feel my hangover. This means that I was still somewhat drunk this morning heeheehee :X

I went to "the Wavehouse" yesterday for my friend's birthday. It was AWESOME. It's pretty much an outside club complete with sand and a view of the ocean. There were super hot women there. I'm so glad that house music is making a comeback in San Diego. There's always such a good vibe at a house club...pretty much no fighting, wonderful people to meet, and little to no drama.

Two of my buddies were kicked out. I still don't know why but that kind of cut our day short. Oh well, I think I'll go again soon.

Well my grades came in and all my hard work and half-assed sifting has finally paid off.  I achieved both my goals of an A and the top grade in the class.  I scored a 100.4% on my final after the curve which means the final was curved beyond what I scored.  I'm glad I worked so hard on this class.  I wish I had the ability to go to school full time, but with Gen going to nursing school I will be the main bread winner for at least another year.  I'll continue to do 1 or 2 classes each semester until she's out.  Then it's her turn to support me while I go full-bore into school...if I don't piss her off too much in the mean time.

Oh and I want you all to know that while I achieved my goals, my drinking never subsided.  You can be an alcoholic and a success.